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It's been some time since i see baby..

I miss him so much.

Randomly watching youtube videos.

Until i come across this song.

Yiruma - Kiss the rain

It's so soothingly sad.

Bring tears to my eyes.

Because i miss him even more..

In life, everything is always changing.

From us in a long distance relationship in the very beginning..

Until one year and a half year later, i join him to study in Kampar..

And then we went into a short version of LDR one and a half year later because he went KL for his internship.

And then he came back for his last semester.

And i choose to go KL for my internship..

We were together for most of the time and i think i got used to it.

Too used to being with him.

From now onwards, as my internship already ended.

We will be in long distanced again.

It feels hard for me.

Because he started working.

He is trying very hard to gain achievements in his career.

Therefore we have less time together.

I understand this is life.

This is necessary.

I know of a few people who were in longer period of long distance.

But they were so strong to faced it.

I do not know how tough it is for them.

But i guessed, it sure is tough.

Just that they didn't really show it out.

I feel they are so much stronger than i am.

Maybe one day, i can be strong as well.

I wish we could love forever

I wish for every long distance couple to stay strong and be together forever.

I truly wish the best for all long distance couples.

Love is strong when you can overcome the distance.

I miss you baby

So much. :'(

Stressed

Had a rather unhappy night.

Stressed up about something.

Every time we talked about it, i will ended up feeling frustrated.

I cannot share it with you anymore.

We just don't look at this in the same direction.

Maybe i've changed.

But you would never understand until you walk in my shoes.

I've seen more things.

I'm more exposed.

And i've grown up.

I know i might have changed.

But i did not regret a thing.

To me, it's called growing.

I know my limits.

I know what i should and should not do..

But i have made up my mind.

That independence is most important.

No matter how close someone is with you.

It's very hard to find someone who is willing to put you in priority number one..

It's best if you are independent.

Updating - Annual Trip with Birthday Gang

So much had happened..

So long since i blogged.

I'm too lazy to blogged about the past.

I shall just post about the recent ones.

First of all, i completed my internship.

Currently, i am in Kuantan with nothing to do.

This post will be about the trip with birthday gang.

On the 30th of August, the gang from Kuantan took the bus to KL.

They stayed at Smart hotel in Wangsa Maju.

I went to meet up with them on the 31st of August, at the Zoo Negara situated in Ampang.

Well, the zoo was better than i expected.

But it was super tiring because it was so huge.

We walked and walked and walked but it seemed like there are no ends..

But i was glad i went there.

It's fun to have an outing with the gang after so long.

And it's like the one day where i can go somewhere and spend the whole day with him.

Since he started working, we didn't really have quality time together.

it's all just the few hours before bed and the few minutes before he leave to work every day.

We went home to bath and change after the zoo trip.

Went over to their hotel in Wangsa maju so that we can take the LRT together to KLCC.

On the way to their hotel, we actually saw a lot of recommended restaurant from the websites.

But still we went to KLCC for dinner.

We had dinner in Kiki Taiwanese Restaurant by Fong Lye if i am not wrong.

Took a stroll outside KLCC awhile and headed back after that.

Stopped by Chatime before we went back to the hotel.

They went back up and baby and i went home.

The next morning is the trip to Malacca.

Baby has to work, so he cannot come :(

He sent me off to the bus station around 730-745.

So sad because everyone of them goes in pair except me and Hong Cheet.

Grace couple and Shu Ying couple was very nice to me the whole trip. 

Taking turns to accompany me instead of spending time with their loved ones.

I feel so guilty i have to be the light bulb.

They were just so super nice trying to make me not feel left out.

I really appreciate their efforts.

It is at time like this that you know they really care about you.

I did told them that if the next trip, everyone will be in partners and if i am not, i might consider not going.

Because the guilt kills me.

Watching the couples being so sweet to each other is really nice but it made me miss him so much more.

But they told me not to be silly.

They were genuinely nice.

I am very grateful for Marcus and Shuying.

Shuying accompanied me all the way on our walking journey, shared umbrellas with me instead of Marcus.

I am so sorry, Marcus. :(

I love them so much.

Really really grateful to have them with me for this trip.

Although they also didn't see their partners for some time already.

But they still didn't forget to care about me.

It's just so so so nice of them.

And i appreciate it a lot. :)

Maybe i should blog more details about the trip like the food and stuff :P

This is more about my feelings. 

Heehee.